TC and BD

I have just discovered about my alter ego, my other personality.
His/her name is BD. (Well, it’s an initial name, just like TC that stands for Tormented Complex. BD wants me to keep his/her name in secret).
BD will come into surface when TC suffers from a breakdown and his/her “disease” peaked.
Last night, when I tried to get some sleep, something happened.
In conscious state, TC and BD debated and talked internally.
I even remember that I muttered their conversation.
Sounds insane, but, yeah…

Hey, TC… I have replaced you for a while tonight. I know what’s inside your mind.

So?

Well, holding back tears isn’t something very pleasant to do, right?

…

Maybe you’ll get better if you spill all your tears out.

Maybe.

So, wanna come back into the surface?

I don’t know. I can overcome this pain myself; I don’t need your help.

You do need my help. If you find it very hard to shed your tears, I can help you.

How?

You know me. Wanna give it a shot?

I’ve got no other option, I guess.

Yeah, no other option.
You’re alone, you know…
Precisely, both of us are alone.
Look around you, who do you have?
Go to mirror and see yourself.
You will see your own pathetic shadow.
Well, even we are lower than shadow.
Our existences in this world are questionable.
We got nothing. Nothing left to fight for.
Just an empty void.
We’ll get lost again in the darkness.
I love dark.
Darkness will fall again.
We’ll be left again.
Sitting at the corner, pointless, waiting for something that will never happen.
No dream. No hope. Nothing left. Nobody left.
Just you and me.
I have already accustomed to the excruciating pain.
How about you?
Even the smallest problem can trigger back your “disease”.
You’re useless, you know.
Nobody wants you, which are obvious.
We’re the oblivion.
Condemned to the deepest pit of darkness.
I’m longing here.
To die peacefully.
That’s my wish.
Simple, but never fulfilled.
TC, look at you.
You look horrible even now.
Guess, we’re not loved by fate, huh?

That’s only the part of the conversation that I remember.
Burst into tear after that.
I don’t know I cried for how long.
Before that, the clock showed 00.30.
Then, I don’t know how long I have shed my tears till I fell asleep.

Tormented Complex (TC), backed up by BD.